What the H*ll

All things came in a sudden.
Without any sign.
Without any trace.
Yesterday we are like joking around,discussing the silly drama show ; today I am like the one who assassinated ur beloved father , the one u most hate and dislike in the world.
Yesterday you are like defend for me in front of anyone ; today you are like saying " come one! there she is! Get her! " to everyone.
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WHAT HAVE I DONE?
Is it something I did? Or is it something u said?
Am I not treated u good enough? For a friend who just known each other for not more then half a year? What are you expecting? Am I let you down ? Am I not reaching ur minimum requirement ? Am I not tolerable enough ? Am I not caring enough ?

Doing all those effort just hoping to receive your greeting without a bad word inside of it. Or at least will give me a smile when I say hello to you in the morning . Or perhaps one day you will call my name instead of calling bitch . Or maybe just agree with my word for once and stop trying to make sarcasm in every single point that i list out.

Am I too greedy for ordering so many wishes at a same time?
I know you are excruciating for the happening of some trouble in your life ; I know you are having a hard time in dealing with all of it,is easy to tell by your panda eyes ; I know u may ignore everyone's feeling while you are having problem in even dealing urs . But,do you need to do it that way? Are you thinking that by showing ur anguishness and acting like someone with schizophrenia will eventually win the caring of others?

Everyone desire happiness.
To gain happiness,you must learn to share your happiness with others ; thus people will in turn share theirs with you . On the contrary , making people feel bad will do nothing help but just creating a awful image of yours in other's heart.

Or this is just your special way in reaching jubilation? Who knows??